Time to face the music.

I've been running from this for nigh on 10 years now, but after my three-way meeting with my fieldwork tutor and line manager it has been decided that I'm to undergo counselling.

Certain issues were raised in the meeting, and certain ones were kind of blurted out. They are issues I need to deal with, and will hopefully get dealt with through this counselling, but part of me just wants to run and hide, no surprise then that one of the aforementioned issues is avoidance. Others include dealing with emotional stress constructively, and also working through this shadow that's sat over me since my breakdown in 2006 which resulted in me dropping out of university in York.

As for the nigh on a decade stuff, well, I was first offered to go through counselling when I was like 13 or 14, I don't really remember now, to deal with depression, aggression, and sociopathic tendancies. Being the little ball of crazy I was back then I colourfully told them were to stuff their counselling and have avoided the issue every time it has been raised since.

Well, grab the bull by the horns and all that jazz.

Here we go.